Feb 032014
 

I haven’t posted anything in here in a very long time. I thought I would post and let the blog world know I’m still alive.

I joined Red Light Center a little over a month ago. I put a link to the game/social site in the side bar to the right at the bottom. It is an adult MMO community. It gives me a great outlet to communicate with other adults without my social anxiety kicking in.

I’m still in therapy and this month will mark my fifth month seeing her. A few weeks ago I was talking about a topic that I’ve never really shared before. Sharing it has caused me a lot of trauma, which caused me to stop eating and sleeping and starting to consume alcohol. I’m trying hard to turn that around to more positive actions. A major life event might be on the horizon for me this month.

I know this is short and cryptic (which is how I am most of the time), but I promise to post more later.

Dec 232013
 

Liebster-Award

I have been nominated for the Liebster Award by my follower Deb. I’ve seen other people with this award, but I never thought I would actually have someone tag me with one! Heck, I didn’t even think anyone would read and/or comment on my blog posts. I don’t think my life is all that exciting for someone to have any interest reading about it.

Thank you Deb for nominating me. If you don’t know about her, you should take a look at her blog. Her prose is beautiful and she also has some very cute photos on her blog.

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Dec 172013
 

On June 6, 2013, I started taking ballroom dancing lessons at the Fred Astaire Dance Studio in South Barrington. I always loved to dance, at least alone in my room. I thought it would be fun to be taught how to dance. It was also give me the exercise my medical doctor thought that I needed. I also thought it would give me some social exposure as well. For those that follow this blog, you know that is something that I need to work on. Doing ballroom dancing in front of everyone would be a challenging exposure for me.

On Saturday, I had my first ballroom dancing competition at the Holiday Star Ball. Needless to say, I was very nervous about it. I was nervous about getting the steps right, but more so I was nervous about performing in front of others. There were other couples on the floor with me, any where from three to six others, which made it a little better.

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Oct 312013
 

I haven’t written anything here in two weeks. Part of the reason is because the government shutdown was over, and I went back to work on October 17th. The work piled up after being away from work for over two weeks. Needless to say, that has been keeping me really busy and stressed out.

Another part of the reason I haven’t updated anything is because I just feel like there is nothing going on with my life right now – other than work. I just go to work, come home, eat, sleep and repeat. Yes, one day out of the week I go to therapy and another day out of the week I go to the dance studio, but other than that I don’t do much. Even my weekends are spent at home as I hate going out among the social world.

I was thinking about blogging about my opinions on sports and/or politics, but I really wanted to try my best to blog about my life rather then my thoughts on the events around me. I thought that if I started to do that I would be avoiding trying to open up and talk about myself on here. On the other hand, just talking about something is better than talking about nothing. That’s me, over analyzing all of my social interactions, even if it is with a self-published, online, personal journal!